Sunday, October 12, 2008

Blogging from the Heart

As I mentioned earlier...when things are at hurricane level....it is easy to blog from a deeply emotional level. I know there may be real people...ummm....not that my cyberfriends aren't real....but people that know me in real life...that might be reading Ginger's Journey...and they maybe wondering WTF....or ummmm something like that....so for those of you who know me in real time, real life, real face to face relationships...never fear!

Most of the turmoil lately has to do with deeply personal and/or family issues not the day to day grind of school and work and such. Not that there haven't been things that make me doubt... minor glitches or annoyances of late...(there always is)....perhaps those I have not been able to handle as well...due to other "stuff". Perhaps they are more important because of other "stuff" and so they become entangled in everything else.

Which reminds me of a book I read one time...can't remember the title....but it is all about "stuff"...emotional stuff...issues...things we carry with us....and it is about how we all need to make sure we recognize it as just that...STUFF....not life or death, not unusual (we all have stuff....different times, different levels, different ways of handling it) ....not something that has to be solved....not really....lots of stuff has no answers...it just ....is what it is...trying to solve it...is impossible...and sometimes even trying to understand it can be likewise.

But you must find ways to manage it...take the pain, flames, hurt, sadness, confusion, complex feelings and soothe it....ease it, redirect it, erase it..refigure it....conceptualize it in a way that can be dealt with....HENCE...my blogging...for me... dealing with complex rather philosophical feelings and thoughts and situations...takes writing....there is power in putting feelings and thoughts into words...strong words....powerful images....metaphors that capture the essence as closely as anything can.... tell the story and the story becomes...just that....a story...and the emotions drain away with the words (and time)...and become just a part of the story of this journey through life....without the mystical ability to shred self into nothingness.

So just as this journey is always an adventure...so will this blog be....never know what you might read here...or perhaps discover here...because sometimes when reading other people's words...I have discovered something of myself in them...so perhaps... might you...here are Ginger's Journey...perhaps you will discover a piece of the puzzle of life here....perhaps it will lead you down a path or a detour....perhaps it will give you pause as you journey through life...make you think...or make you grow...make you cry or smile....make you wonder...make you feel a deeper level of emotion...for life is full of emotion and for those that deny it....you are missing out on so much...for even despair has an opposite...and it will come round again....life is like that....for to feel GREAT joy...and GREAT love...and GREAT satisfaction....one must also encounter...GREAT sadness....and GREAT doubt...and GREAT dissatisfaction....for to deny one...is to erase the other...One must be willing to "go there" ....to that deep place inside where the emotions are so strong they threaten to consume you...and you have to have FAITH that you will come out again to experience the "other side"....

It is late and sleep is necessary...so I will close for now...but know my cage is tarnished with each go round...and the bars are loose and push easily aside...may the cages in your life....be so also dear reader!

1 comment:

tricia said...

Ginger, I wanted to say thank you for blogging. I come over here at least one a week. I think wether people are connected in real life or cyberspace their lives touch each other. So we may never know who we touch along our journey. So a big thank you for sharing your thoughts & how you're growing.

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